Dreams and Fairytales

You ever stop, and think what you were doing at this exact moment a year ago? Five years ago? Ten years ago?

You ever stop, and think what you will be doing at this time of year next year, five years from now, ten years from now?

I remember most of the times I've done this. Drifting away into memories of the past, only to wake up where I am now - trying to connect the pieces as to how I've gotten here. There are so many moments I wish I could keep with me, relive them, experience them again for the first time. And what about regrets? Do they even mean anything anymore? You can regret, and wish and hope but what is done, is done, and what will be, will be.

There is a moment I relive many times that I will not describe in full detail here. But the magic of it, the suddenness, and the excitement stays with me to this day. It is a fairytale moment that only little girls dream of, then forget promptly upon entering adulthood. Only this is one I will never forget. This is that one that creeps into my dreams, time after time, making me shocked when I wake up to a different reality.

But the times have changed, and we are all growing up. We have accepted our circumstances, and we are trying to make the best of them. I was angry, bitter, for so long - not knowing if it would ever happen. When it did, it was so short - so little time to gather it and store it away in fear that it would never come again. But here we are, tiny remnants of what once was sparkling in our eyes. We can pretend not to care, but it was once there. So long back, so far gone. But it existed.

I will live my life remembering that moment always, because it was the realization that dreams do sometimes come true. I will accept that sometimes things, people, come and go, but that we can make for ourselves a different reality, a different fairytale. New dreams will come, new people will come.

But this dream is one I don't think I can ever let go. For me, some time ago, it was long gone until it actually happened. That moment is what I will cherish. It can never penetrate me again the way it once did, for I have a different life, a different set of circumstances. But it will live forever in my heart as the the one dream that actually came true.